15th April 1915
My Darling
Luckily I have a morning pass so am able to write to Aunt Fanny and to you. I have written her an explanatory letter which I think she will understand.
I am feeling simply rotten with a heavy cold, cough and sore throat, and I hardly slept at all last night. So I should not be a very pleasant visitor for Aunt Fanny to entertain! I've also had a good weep because it is such a temptation to see you yet at the same time I know it would do for me, and I know you cannot bear to see me give way. I feel as though I have come to the end of my tether as far as being brave is concerned.
Don't think me very horrid, darling - I also feel as though the beginning of next week will see me very below par, so I think I'd better go home and rest. The strain of the past few weeks seems to be bringing it on earlier. Any mental strain may do this. I have been in the children's ward the last few days. It is very nice but when you've been awake most of the night their cries and screams do not improve your temper! It seems selfish of me to refuse to see you like this but, believe me, dearest, I am thinking of you as well as myself. I must go out and post this now. Write to me at Badsey for Sunday.
All my love
Ever your devoted
Mela
